Will I be the same as before ?{ 🤔} [ Deviated into a lot of topics also it's long don't go as I will be exposing a part of my mind] { that is what is happening through every post if you think about it}

Recently the has been a massive surge of views for my first post and just like how I speculated the dopamine rush you get from it is as same as the one you get out of the likes, views and comments you get on "social media" like look everybody what I do daily gram [Instagram 😒], snap everything that I see chat [ Snapchat 😑], make Mark mint money by selling my private info without my consent book [Facebook if you missed it I doubt it] to name a few. Maybe the high I get out of this one so much more intense and higher. I am afraid whether this will cause me to write garbage for the frequency and quantity, disregarding my foundation stone of quality over quantity. I am saying this as this rush is sooo intense, the classic sugar rush you get while devouring an ultra-rich coffee cake feels like a cakewalk in front of this. 

No matter how much this blog grows the formula which makes this blog raw, fun, weird, fascinating, interesting and entertaining won't change, the declassified formula is regulating the filter to the point where I am hitting the sweet spot between building a wall leading to being fake and exposing too much{ which I feel is happening more than I prefer} to call the cyber police to get me some professional help, well shoot now someone will call the FBI or they don't need to as they may be already reading this as privacy on the internet is the biggest myth ever [ if the FBI is seeing this I am joking ]. With each post, I feel like I am ripping off my clothes in front of the world, of course, there is some discomfort [ to be honest considerable discomfort]which was expected, this was one of the reasons I kept on procrastinating but now we are here. 

Since I am one of those people when doing something it is all or nothing my posting frequency shows that, so if you are back here after a week and don't see anything new come again the next. If that visit too was a wait of time come after two then I am sure there will be something new and if you don't see anything after 3 weeks the possible reasons can be 

1) I have forgotten how to read and write

2) I have met my maker

3) I have met with an accident

4) I am feeling extremely low and horrible

If I write in the forurth state I will make this sanctuary of whatever this is into what I feared when I started this i.e a place to take out all my rage, frustration and sadness making it negative, horrible to read [ the writing may be ok but you'll probably report this website for how depressing, violent and mentally derailing it is { I know as once I was in the said state and drafted a piece after reading it I myself was scared} ] two brackets back to back !! What is this brackception that was an inception "joke" if you haven't seen inception you may be living under a rock or you have and thought to get this you need some weed, hallucinogens, MDMA, heroin pick your poison? [ drugs in general ] { please I haven't done drugs and don't intend on doing them as the trade-off is too much and I don't want to get my brain fried, ( a round of applause for those who have seen don't do drugs your brain will be like a fried egg video, those who didn't now you know, just see it anyway because DON'T DO DRUGS) 

Hoarding information on drugs is another one of the things I like to do, it is fun to what all happens when XZY chemicals react with the brain and body it's so much fun to go deep into these things it helps to get a perspective why people use these things especially why a lot of musicians used to use it in their days they mainly used psychedelic drugs. Look at today's music and the 2000s you'll hear the difference I am not saying do drugs but you could see the difference between stairway to heaven and Gucci gang just the names can show the stark difference look at the sad state today's "music" is in. [ I am entitled to have an opinion aren't I ?]

Back to the topic at hand, it is said that the effect of psychedelics can't be put into the bracket of "high", a lot of the users calls it an experience, I saw a documentary in Netflix called have a good trip: adventures in psychedelics, in it various celebrities describe their "trip" it is from there I saw the don't do drugs your brains will be like a fried egg thing. Anyway in the documentary, they educate us of how an actual trip is it's nowhere near like how the mainstream media has shoved down our throats where the people under the influence see things in a pallet of different colours you know what I am trying to say, talking to the plants part is correct though. I remember one person from the show describing their trip where all the inanimate objects came to life and started to speaking he \ she sat down and listened to what all it had to say. 

While we are on the subject of drugs many artists say that psychedelics have completely changed their life, one of those artists is the reason why I picked up the brush, I feel his work is the epitome of what art should be, the one and only Alex Grey he is one of the people who changed my life through his work. His works reflect what all ideas and philosophies I had in my head, for a long time I kept my phone's wallpaper his work praying { click to see that magnificent piece of art [ don't look at the description first consume it in your own special way then look at the description} that one piece gives you a glimpse into the greatness of Alex Grey [ this is what you call a fanboy ] I have told more about Alex Grey in my previous blog my medicine........ oh wait I haven't I just mentioned him I just remembered parts of the blog I accidentally trashed YAY !!!!!! I was extremely pleased with that piece I feel another piece like that one brewing in my brain I am loving this I am questioning my action of typing this into this blog read along friend because isn't it fun being inside the mind of another as fun as eavesdropping on another one's juicy conversation I am just speculating do comment below anonymously about how you feel about it correct me if I am wrong.

I am trying to stick to a deviated topic I am trying to control myself from swinging between different trains of thought and focussing on moving to different compartments as it would be more fluid I feel[tellme in the comments if you prefer different trains or adjacent compartments]{ am I not being a pain in the neck forcing you to comment even when you don't want to, I just want to know if I am being annoyed, painful to read etc give me feedback to improve you can comment anonymously which is boon. You can speak your mind out no sugarcoating wouldn't it be great if we could do the same in real life }

Anyway back to Alex Grey in the wonderful year 2004 he founded the chapel of sacred mirrors in New York, a cultural centre and refuge for contemplation that celebrates a new alliance of divinity and creativity. Grey's works have become the icons of the contemporary spiritual movement by virtue of their power to inspire inform and illuminate the inexplicable in simple words the mission of the chapel of sacred mirrors is to build a sanctuary of visionary art to uplift the global community [ every single word in this paragraph is from Chapel of Sacred Mirror's website yes I have plagiarized cause if I am going to explain it in my words we can be here all day long and I think everyone likes their ability to see things and value their eyeballs moreover don't think anyone will stick around that long ] 

It is one of my biggest dreams to visit the Entheon at the chapel of sacred mirrors [for the sake of your and my eyeballs and my brain let's call it a temple at the chapel of sacred mirrors I am pretty sure you are sick of reading that word more than five times within in a minute sorry for that I don't like acronyms much moreover it messes with my flow while typing furiously typing is wayyy more fun than writing but writing has its own plus points.

Damn, I lost my flow cannot force this type of stuff  ( I am saying after maybe staring at the screen for five minutes trying to pick up where I left )so goodbye for now. Take care of yourselves even though the vaccine is just arm's length away don't try to be Rambo. Thank you for reading this keep visiting if you like coming here there's [no need to say that you will if you do like it here] just stating it because it is an untold law of blogging, if I break the law all hell will break loose so I am following it. Till next time 

Lookin gooooood I must say, instead of one humongous bomb I have spilt into paragraphs I am patting myself on the back now. After each blog, I am learning yay me!!!!!!!!