At one point in life, you find yourself at a crossroads, where you're faced with the harsh and painful reality that things won't happen the way you wish they would, and it's all a game of russian roulette in one form or another. You eventually will cave in to this, as there is a physical and mental limit on trying to climb onto a rope made of barbed wire, and if not, your very essence of life will simply melt, sizzle and evaporate like a scoop of ice cream on the pavement of a summer noon.
What can be done about it? Cry? Scream into the pillow? Show that pillow who is the boss, do it till you can't do it anymore, do whatever it takes [as long as you don't hurt others] to get it out of your system, completely process it, digest it. Slowly, the stinging pain will ease, but the haunting images may not go away so fast, all the what ifs, the had beens, if I had is all gone, all over. It's all in the past, and we mustn't desecrate the dead; focus on what's in front of your eyes so we may hope to build a better future.
You may ask what qualifications I have to give such advice? I have not made it in any way, but they say experience is the greatest teacher, and I have quite a relationship with pain of the mental kind, so these words are from the furnace of a forge. These potential answers are not something which was born in a flash; a lot of other methods were tried, tested and failed, and these are the latest and greatest specimens that are doing a wonderful job to date.
Back to my previous rambling, you see, I haven't been feeling it lately, I think it's evident in this writing, writer's block? Maybe it's just not that, it's like I'm chasing behind a thread, and while running behind it, I'm zoning out, and I lose it. This is happening over and over and over and over when I'm trying to focus on one thing. Well, we've seen worse days, but that doesn't mean this is to be taken lightly or whatever.
They say you shouldn't force things other than you know what I am talking about, anyway, since I forced four little paragraphs, let me end it with this. The beginning of all great things starts the same, but it is the path that is walked on that sets them apart. I am now in such a situation, and by the looks of it, whatever the outcome, the magnitude of the outcome will be the same. It's great if things go the way I wish it would, but things will also look as messy if things go south.
Gods of luck, please be kind to me.
Shreegovind N A
Good one
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